I feel super happy because the boss is not here today, tomorrow, the day after.. until tuesday! =] I get to faster do my work and settle my stuffs.. And I haven’t even taken day-off since the beginning of this month.. Even after falling sick, I still come to work.. =( I feel so adult-like.. I want to be young again.. I want to be 15.. I want to be back to those times where I would just come back from school and do whatever I want.. Take a nap or make mashed potatoes..

Sigh.. I always open my blogger and write emo stuffs.. =( Is my life that sad?? if dad see’s this, he’ll gimme that stop-complaining-about-your-life-and-just-workhard lecture..

Besides having invisible stress from work, I feel like I’m emotionally drained and de-motivated.. Every single day at the office, I’m being called dumb and slow.. I don’t have the brains to be a designer, I’m too stupid.. I’m not good enough to be a designer and all.. And he threw me to sales department.. I knew it.. I can’t design at all.. I do not have design sense.. and I am really bad… =( I admitted long time ago.. but people around me keep giving me support and false hope (dunno false or not la, but time is showing me a clearer picture), telling me that I’m good and I can do it.. the fact is, I CAN’T.. and I do not know what can I do.. I just want to stay home and sew cute purses and make jewelry.. I don’t like to sit in the office, I don’t like to work for anyone.. I don’t like to wake up early, neither do I like to sleep early.. =( I wish someone could guide me and tell me what I should do..

Well, hello to my first job, and the first step of being an adult.. If I could choose, I want to retire now.. I have heard a lot of people going through difficult times during their first job, but I really envy those who enjoys their job very much.. I am still looking for that job I would be happy working at everyday.. I wanna be home-based…………………………….. =(

I MISS MY GLASS CRYSTALS AND SWAROVSKI..

I MISS MY CAMERA..